i wanted to go where i wanted,
i don't want to go where i'm not wanting to;
cruel but it's a fact that
places i wanted to be not always wanting my existence
and places i desired not no longer wanting me who doesn't wanted them
heart broken
tears dropping
hiding under the blanket and cry
this is what i am now doing
even when i'm writing this post
it sores my heart
for i'm
who they have always been thinking of not capable
who they have always been not thinking
who they have never been caring to
what that's exactly like a tag, being pulled off whenever they feel irritating
what they thought not needed, in turn making me feel i also don't need myself to exist
